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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

State of mind, the night before

My phone has been ringing throughout the evening with your well wishes, and I'm brimming with joy about how lucky I feel tonight to have all of you in my life. I'm struggling for words to describe my state of mind right now, but since so many have asked, I'll at least try...

First, I have my whole immediate family here (David got into Chicago tonight), and once we all were in a room together at Joe's apartment, I immediately got emotional. Then, Mom and Dad presented us some gifts--matching commemorative "Hugs" statues for Joe and me, and a gorgeous diamond pendant on a white gold chain for me. I dare you to accept that from your parents, who are so near tears they can hardly speak the words as they hand you the box, and not cry!

The most surprising moment of the night for me came just as we returned to Joe's apartment after picking David up at the airport. All Joe's Chicago-based friends were there, and were heading out the door. His friends Rishi and Greg gave me hugs, and one of them said, "Thank you, thank you for what you are doing for our friend." I lost it. I have thought so much about the fact that I am doing this to save a brother's life, a son's, an uncle's. I have thought about the fact that my actions have inspired and touched other people, friends and strangers. But until that moment, I hadn't really thought about this gift from Joe's perspective, and from the perspective of his fabulous and loving community full of people who care about him just like you all care about me. To them, I was not a hero so much for doing this, but for doing it for their friend, who they love. It blew me away. That gives me a tremendous surge of pride and peace as I pack up to leave for the hospital tomorrow.

Which brings me to my current state of mind. I am not scared, honestly, not a bit. I'm calm, and will probably even sleep pretty well. I hope I don't die or anything (the chances are a fraction of a percent, and really not much more than with an appendectomy or other minor surgery), and sure, I've had to face mortality today a little more than most 32-year-olds might in a given day. But overall, I feel calm. Ready. Eager. And above all, truly blessed. Give yourselves all a pat on the back.

Good night, Chopped Liver fans. Talk to you on the other side of the transplant!

10 Comments:

  • Becky - your surgery should be wrapping up shortly and I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you. I'm hoping that the surgeons are now concentrating on giving you the finest looking "Mercedes Benz" scar of their career. Good thoughts for a comfortable next few days and for a smooth recovery for both you and Joe.

    Laurie

    By Anonymous Laurie Alexander, at 10:15 AM  

  • I hope everything is going well. I've been thinking about you all morning. :)

    By Blogger Troy, at 11:06 AM  

  • Becky, we're all thinking of you and you're right - we are so thankful for the person you are. Thank you for helping Joe, we all love him very much.

    Hope you are feeling well - you've got a heck of a lot of people thinking of you and hoping for a speedy recovery!

    Sharon Skinner

    By Anonymous Sharon, at 12:45 PM  

  • SUCCESS: Becky's mom reports by telephone that the operation went as expected. Both patients are in recovery and the transplanted liver is working. More details as they become available.

    By Anonymous Mike McNarney, at 4:22 PM  

  • Becky - So glad everything went well for you and Joe. We are thinking about you and praying for a speedy and comfortable (!) recovery for you both. Take care,

    Julie and Jamey
    (and Farley, Milo, Grace, Binkley, and Fuzzy Cat - who all look forward to receiving scratches and petting from you sometime soon!)

    By Anonymous Julie Hansen, at 8:14 PM  

  • Becky - I just found this blog through another blog. You know what you're doing is awesome, but I just wanted to let you know that strangers think it's pretty awesome too. Congratulations on a successful surgery. You rock!

    sam
    www.livejournal.com/users/samiam9610

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:38 PM  

  • Becky,
    We've been thinking about you and Joe all day. "The Year of The Greatest Gift." Wow... Girl, when you give a gift, YOU GIVE A GIFT. I've admired your courage, your wit, your humor and your inspiring grace through all of this. You're really something. We love you, and we're praying for you! -- Dukes -- on Liver Watch 2006 in rural Inwood, Ia.

    By Anonymous Jennifer Dukes Lee, at 10:04 PM  

  • hooray success :) :) glad to get the good news on you & brother joe.
    terry in Mississippi

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:19 PM  

  • Beck~

    You are AMAZING.

    That's all I gots to say ...

    :-)

    John

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:47 AM  

  • OH -----PRAISE BE.....
    MORE PRAYERS THO.
    HUGS
    MARY CAREY

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 7:50 PM  

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